Monday...September 15, 2014
I AM STAYING IN VIGO! I wasn´t transferred and I am happy here! Vigo is truly an amazing area. I know this place will be a heaven for me after the mission. How grateful I am to be here surround with so many amazing people and such profound love as the hard times do come. Plus now I am pretty positive that I will be finishing here.. which is a weird thought. In all of my areas I have been so lucky to stay in each one for a long time and I love it because you get to know the people so much more. Its harder to leave but just the more better.
On your mission you leave behind your family and your friends. But not really because Heavenly Father surrounds you with the most beautiful people who fill in those gaps. The people here truly do become your family. The thing I love so much about serving missions is that you love people on a level that you never have before. You hit a point where you truly hurt for them and truly desire their good. There is not quite anything like it.
The other day I was talking to a girl about serving a mission and I just felt the love and prayers of you guys so strong as I told her how missions are amazing and that everything will be okay. I told her, you know being on the other side of the world than my family, I have never felt so close to them ever in my life.
And I think that that is because of one
We are an ETERNAL family. We are sealed and we have this bond which is so real
I love being a missionary because even though I am so far I am so close and I have the peace that we are sealed. And then I do all I can so that others can be sealed too and have what I have
This week we saw miracles and we saw trials. We saw miracles from AFTER the trials.
Here is a entry from my journal the other night 4 Septiembre 2014
Dropping people- an act of faith. Today my heart really hurt! I also feel peace and so much love. We dropped M. Like I have said I don´t think that I have taught an investigator that my heart just FEELS as much as I have for M. It was a weird lesson. M. has been progressing other than the fact that she doesn´t feel a desire to pray to know it all that we have taught her is true. And she doesn´t really understand the restoration because she doesn´t think that there is a such thing as a one true church. It has actually been so hard because we just love her so much as she has opened up inmensly to us and as we have felt she spirit so strong. Man I LOVE M. and A. so much. My heart truly does ache for them! Having to drop them really does tear your heart because you just want everything to click for them so badly. But you just have to trust in the Lord and know that their time will come and that there and people that are ready now. Anyways it was a weird lesson. Hermana Braithwaite and I both were just completely speechless at points with no idea what to say or read. As M. basically told us that she won´t be changing and all she said I was just praying SO hard and flipping through my scriptures and just nothing felt right. I had no idea what to say all I know it that I felt so sad and felt God´s love for her so strongly. I opened my mouth and just got shaky as I started to cry as I told her how much I love her and the Lord loves her more than she can comprehend. We felt the spirit so strong and it was just SO tangible as we testified of the love of God with tears in our eyes yet none of it seemed to touch her heart. That was the hardest. It was very sad.
As missionaries we get to feel a little of the Love of God for each and every one of His children. Our eyes our opened and our hearts are stretched and we truly DESIRE and work diligently so that everyone may know what we know and feel what we feel. We truly desire the salvation of others. There have been several times on my mission that I have just felt the love of God SO intensly strong..as if the veil is just lefted just a bit. Today was one of those days. It is just so CLEAR to me the love of God no matter what. And as humans we can´t even come close to imagining the very reality of power of this divine love. As we walked out I just thought,
WHY IS THIS SO HARD. Why can´t M. We have truth. We just POURED out hearts out to her. She is a GOOD person, we pray for her constantly. Why won´t it just click for her?
As they just ran through my mind the most clear sentence just cleared out those thoughts,
"This isn´t easy because it wasn´t for Him."
I hope and I pray and I have faith that one day it will click for margarita. I know it will. I don´t know when and I don´t know what it will be but I know that it will come.
As a missionary you learn who you truly do represent! And it is a PRIVILEGE. Even the hardest days you can know that you are standing shoulder to shoulder next to your older brother. It is the coolest blessing about a serving a mission. I can´t tell you how thrilled and nervous and happy I am for you Katie.
Biggest miracle of the week.. G! she is from Brasil and she is a miracle miracle MIRACLE. Most prepared person I have met. I will tell you more about her next week when I´ve got more time. Another defining moment on my mission. I met a return missionary who I think may be my hugest example of what it means to be a member missionary and truly dedicate your life to Lord and his work. Her name is L. and she is from Spain and has the most beautiful accent. She served her mission in California. I ll tell you more about her and what she has to do with Georgia next week.
For now enjoy this video that I love
Every person that is every born is influenced by the light of Christ. It is how God works.
OS QUIERO MUCHISIMO!
Hermana Nydegger
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