Monday…November 10th, 2014
Mi querida familia,
On Wednesday we had our monthly zone meeting in Santiago and that was fun too. Funny thing.. the zone leaders had picked on us to do this demonstration of how to plan to get investigators to church and so we were all sitting in a circle and had to put ourselves in the middle of the circle and just plan like normally as if we were in our apartment but in front of everybody.. can you say a little 'awkward'? Ha but it was fun and a good practice. It is all just too weird this whole thing coming to an end! I catch my self just speechless anytime anyone here asks me how I am doing! I literally can´t respond or find words to even describe how I truly am feeling!
It has been RAINING CATS AND DOGS. Holy cow I don´t think I even knew what rain was until I came up here to Galicia! Now I know it better than Utah snow :) MOM thank you SO much for the rain boots! Seriously if you don´t have rain boots here you are the biggest fool! They are great and perfect. And they are comfortable and go with everything! They came the day before and I picked them up literally an hour before the down pour. Perfect timing thanks to the Lord! And they were easy to pick up. I love my cute mom!
So we seriously had THE most fun week with J. but for some reason she has been acting weird lately. It really worried me because she wasn´t reading her scriptures and was just not her new self. Anyways we were just so caught off guard when she didn´t show up to church on Sunday and then called after to apologize and say that she won´t be coming anymore..
I answered that call and about dropped the phone I was so speechless.. I just PRAYED so hard to try and understand and know what to do! We were running to our eating appointment so I asked her if it was okay to talk in person right after and to stop by.
So we went by and my heart just BROKE as she began to tell how she misses her old life and her 'freedom' to do whatever she wants. Julia is an interesting case because she didn´t have much structure to her life. I had the impression to ask her if she had smoked and she said 'yes' :( She is a wide open book and you can tell so easily when something is wrong! Anyways we just sat there for the longest time talking to her trying to figure out with her what had happened. It just killed me so bad. It was like she had completely forgotten about the many blessings she has seen in her life due to the gospel. We talked about the covenant she made with God and how she will find MORE freedom in the church than any other place. She listened really hard but still kept firm to what she told us and wants to take a break and see if there really is a difference in her life when she lives the gospel. It was so hard. I just felt crushed! I just don´t get it at all why people have a hard time understanding that this is truly the ONLY way to happiness! It was hard because Julia has come SO far and she is everything to me. I just pray constantly that she will see the difference and be able to come back. It was the strangest thing ever.
It made me think for a second about how God must feel when we go off and just don´t understand what He gives and offers to us over and over again! How sad He must feel and how it can be so hard for us to understand! Why is it so hard to just not see the whole picture? We need to stay close to God in all of our decisions. I have so much faith that Julia will come back! It just worries me. We think that something else must have happened..it is a huge mystery and happened all so fast.
PRAY FOR HER. Pray for her! She at least agreed to praying and talking it over with God before she makes any major decisions.
I love you all. I love the mission more than anything and I am so happy! I am enjoying every moment and I feel so grateful at this time for this biggest miracle in my life.. being able to give all I have to the Lord during this year and a half and have him make out of me what he knows to be the best. There is nothing better than the mission! No matter how hard it gets. It is so worth it
OS QUIERO!
Hermana Nydegger
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